Category: think

The true definition of thoughtful

I am a thoughtful person.

Let me rephrase that…. I am a person full of thoughts. Interesting that Thesaurus.com lists “anxious” as a synonym for thoughtful. That’s my kind of thoughtful. The kind where my head is so full of thoughts that there simply isn’t space to breathe, and my only option for a moment’s peace is watching mind numbing television shows.

I just sent Fae a really long email, to which she replied:

“It’s sort of funny you rambled about overthinking and that was one huge orgasm of overthinking.”

You’re telling me.

It’s such a wonder that I think I’ll stay in bed…

I often wonder how other people see me. Actually, I always wonder that. I’m sort of obsessed with it, and it’s the root of all my self consciousness. I don’t know why I really care…

But the thing that scares me the most is that I might be right. That all the horrible things I’m thinking about myself that I think they’re thinking too… really is what they’re thinking.

I think I think too much.

I’ve always wanted to be someone I’d see as beautiful.