I had to know

I went for a walk.

I’ve been going crazy with nothing to do with my life. Saturday is just like any other day when you have no job, and what’s the point of getting out of bed?

I didn’t know where I was going when I left. I thought about maybe walking to the store to get something for lunch. I like to eat when I’m sad, like the majority of the population of North America. But I didn’t. I went the other way, to an old park that I used to walk or bike to in the summer, before I learned to drive and work for a living.

Woods, photo by me

I walked around the woods behind the park, aimlessly, for nearly two hours. It was such a beautiful day. I remembered Girl Guide hikes and camping trips from my childhood. Exploring the forest and learning about different types of trees and how the higher branches block out the sun that the lower ones need to grow and you’re left dead limbs at the bottom and beautiful greenery on top.

Pond, photo by me

I only saw two people the entire time. I saw a deer, and a little pond and one of those fuzzy caterpillars. And a bunch of crazy orange mushrooms.

Orange mushroom, photo by me

When I headed out of the woods, finally, I wanted to see if there were still apple trees in the park. I was determined. I had to know if there were still apple trees and pussywillows and the wobbly foot bridge across the pond. I had to know if a twig with sap on one end would still propel itself across the water. I had to know if it was all still out there and if I could still climb the tree.

The thing that has always grounded me is nature. I’m not an overly outdoorsy person, but I need wind and stars and oceans and trees and funny orange mushrooms. I need them to remind me that I’m small and there is so much world out there.

Forest, photo by me

7 Comments

  • By Faebala, September 18, 2010 @ 5:18 pm

    Remember when you said to me the other day, “Remember when I used to be a photographer?” Clearly, you still are. :P Lovely photos. And lovely post. I love nature. Nothing can make me calm down better than stepping outside and relaxing under the shade of a tree.

  • By Lea, September 18, 2010 @ 6:17 pm

    Those mushrooms are freaking me out a little.

  • By Eleni, September 18, 2010 @ 10:49 pm

    Lovely woods. That mushroom is really cool. Are you getting any fall colors up there yet?

  • By Hezabelle, September 21, 2010 @ 11:25 pm

    Not quite yet. The leaves have JUST started to change, they won’t be fully change until about mid October.

  • By Kit, September 25, 2010 @ 8:33 am

    Sometimes, I need your posts in my life to remind me what good writing is really like

  • By Devon, September 28, 2010 @ 7:25 pm

    I was just about to write something along the lines of the first comment because I haven’t read about you doing your photography lately.

    Anyway, love the mushroom pic and keep it up! Ottawa is so gorge in the fall. Sometimes I miss those little groundhogs too!

    PS Still have your valentine with the heart-shaped potato pic :)

  • By Sebastian, October 2, 2010 @ 6:39 pm

    Lovely photos! Make them link through to larger versions, dammit!

    A twig with sap on one end propels itself across water…?

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