Oh, the places you’ll go

How vain it is to sit down to write when you have not stood up to live.
- Henry David Thoreau

At the crux of who I am, of all of my choices, there is this insatiable desire to live.

To fly, to run, to walk. To drive. To go places, to do everything and try everything. Sometimes my bravery falters. I am not very good at the unreliable or the spontaneous. But I am nothing if not determined.

I get stuck on pause, and find comfort in wishing I had a fast forward button. I get caught up in 9-5 or in the mythical “future” that will be so much better. I get so wrapped up in what’s going on in the day to day that I forget to enjoy life. To live life. I don’t want to be that person, who only has lists and never checkmarks. Who only has somedays and never right nows. Because today is yesterday’s tomorrow, after all. And there is no day but today.

Lemons, by me from my polaroid days

An old lady at tea today told me to always reach for the stars. Cheesy, but you have to respect someone who can tell that to a perfect stranger and truly mean it.

Thoreau is telling me to stand up.

I am. And I will. Stand up and reach and fight for life, every day and not just tomorrow.

For the litany of things that I will sit down to write, today, tomorrow and everyday.

3 Comments

  • By Sebastian, June 12, 2009 @ 12:19 pm

    Bonus points for the Rent reference…!

    Your list/checkbox example was particularly insightful.

    I’m fairly good at doing things (though not brilliant). But I never make lists, so I guess I’m OK…

  • By Faebala, June 12, 2009 @ 7:40 pm

    We’re always in opposite moods, did you notice that? I am not feeling inspired at all. I feel defeated today. Sigh. But I’m glad you’re feeling good. I’m happy that you’re happy! *HUGS* Love you! Enjoy cottaging this weekend.

  • By Steph, June 13, 2009 @ 6:19 pm

    Hey you! congrats on the graduation… also you’ve inspired me to start up my blog again :) not that the lack of job has anything to do with it hehe…

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