Reading Rainbow!

I got this from someone on facebook.. and I thought I wasn’t going to do it. But I’ve decided to give it a try. I’m going to read 50 books in a year. Do it with me!

1. The Gathering by Anne Enright

It’s such a wonder that I think I’ll stay in bed…

I often wonder how other people see me. Actually, I always wonder that. I’m sort of obsessed with it, and it’s the root of all my self consciousness. I don’t know why I really care…

But the thing that scares me the most is that I might be right. That all the horrible things I’m thinking about myself that I think they’re thinking too… really is what they’re thinking.

I think I think too much.

I’ve always wanted to be someone I’d see as beautiful.

part of this terrible mess that I’m making…

I’m sort of at a loss of anything to say, I’m a little bit of a roller coaster these days. I don’t know. I wrote this whole post blathering on about ridiculous things that mean nothing. But I’ve just deleted it. Because it’s just an excuse for me to not go to bed.

i’m looking for someone
but i don’t know his name
all the faces before me
well, they all look the same
but there’s got to be one face
and one pair of eyes
that’ll light me on fire
when they’re looking in mine
oh, I’m looking for someone
oh, I’m looking for someone
who’s looking for me

always this ridiculous obsession with love

nunc aut numquam

I’m through accepting limits, ’cause someone says they’re so…

I was thinking about this line while listened to Wicked the other day. And I decided something.

I am the only person who holds me back. I let life get in my way.

Other people believe in me a lot easier than I do. Other people support me a hell of a lot better than I support myself. All of the things I can’t seem to do, or get right… they’re because I keep making excuses or because I don’t believe I can.

I’m not going to hold myself back. I’m going to give every second of this life every effort possible, ever ounce of my strength. Because I’m going to be 21 in a couple of months, and what have I done? There is no day but today and I need to remember that. And not regret a single day. Not spend my life waiting for something better in the future.

This post has been brought to you by inspiring lines in Broadway musicals!

close to nothing at all

Jesus Christ, my hair is long. I’m constantly amazed by it.

Also, you can watch pictures change on the side of my blog here. Exciting, isn’t it?

“Ooh, look, shiny button..”